If you are anything like me, you spend a lot of your time worrying.
I’ve been driving myself insane as of late. Spending every free second worrying about future expenses is my latest (and one of the longest running) bad habit focus. From eventual car fixes, the goal of owning a home, holiday budgeting, rent increases, wedding plans, and so much more. Essentially, I am breeding anxiety by only focusing on the tasks and goals to get where I want to be. Focus so heavily on the future, I forget to relish in my goals-since-passed. I set so many goals on a daily basis, that I rarely ever take the time I deserve to celebrate actually accomplishing one of them.
Weight of the World Behind One Question
Added to that, I realized how hypocritical I am for behaving this way. Every day, near the end of the evening I ask my 5 year old step-daughter one simple question.
“What was the best part of today?”
Now, her answers tend to range from topics including:
- Whatever video she watched on her iPad right before I asked
I’m sure if I had two recesses a day, and a constant stream of over the top YouTube videos, they’d top my list too. Last night, she answered the question as easily as she always does, and in a pulse restoring moment, she simply asked what was the best part of MY day. I took a step back, closed my eyes to hide the impact of the weight of the world landing on my shoulders. I realized in that moment how much of my day I spent in a worry. How can I move my growing family into a bigger, better home? How can I maximize my saving by analyzing every bit of spending? Questions and questions spinning in my head all day long, robbing me of every good thing that happened right in front of me.
Finally, I gathered myself and answered her question:
“Well, I really think the best part of my day is that: at the end of it I come home to you guys, and laugh, and eat an amazing dinner, and of course, getting tons of bed time cuddles.”
She simply said “nice” and moved on to her next grand adventure. As her little feet pattered to another part of the house, I stayed frozen in place, fighting back tears. And in that moment, I made a New Years Resolution that I am determined to keep.
STOP WORRYING – START ENJOYING
Thank you for reading.