I Started Therapy for My Mental Health...Again
A brief entry about my return to Therapy. I felt abandoned and hopeless after my last attempt.
With new beginnings taking shape in my life, and inspiration filling the gaps, it is time to take a real opportunity to focus on my mental health. I have known for a long time that I needed help, but had not been taken seriously when I tried. Even failing to take it serious myself after losing motivation.
Below are my thoughts immediately after leaving my first appointment with a new Therapist, at a new facility, at a new beginning in my life.
A Daunting Adventure Begins Again...
What a familiar, uncomfortable setting. Deep leather chairs, with solid arms placed elegantly in the close corners of the small room. Tissue boxes taunt me at arms reach, and the plastic blinds tap against the window in the breeze. Across from me, a flannel shirt is tucked neatly into neutral colored khakis. Black shoes close out the crossed legs. Answering questions that make my foot quiver, I step up to my greatest demons as I begin the daunting adventure of seeking mental help again. Once a week, I’ll be going to therapy. It is important for me to put that into words.
Even Therapy Offers Second Chances
My first assignment is to put the practice of breathing exercises in my brain. These calm breathing techniques have been something I have tried for years, but I have never taken it serious enough to make a true difference. (Notice a theme…). I’ve grown as a person since then I believe, and this time I have to let myself normalize the breathing techniques. I defaulted to making them a joke last time, but they have the potential to be a transformation catalyst alone.
I installed “Prana Breath: Calm & Meditate” from the Google Play store for very simple breathing sessions (Not an Ad or an endorsement. I haven’t used it enough to speak to a recommendation). If I can do these four times a day, regulated, I can transition to doing them passively and even in stressful situations. That’s my first step, and hopefully we can lead this into something beautiful. Come along with me, and remember… Just Breathe.